Week 3+

So... beside a couple of trips and falls into a vat of meat I think overall I am doing pretty well. Down 12.6 lbs. I think really my saving grace is that my bf has been helping me with the cooking and shopping. I still haven't gotten to the point of working out yet. My mom keeps telling me I need to go to the gym. I know Ma! Ya think I don't know?

The only thing I have learned is that if I do it at my own pace I have a greater chance of success. It's like telling someone of my sedentary lifestyle to go run a marathon on a sprint after the first mile I am going to get discouraged. So leave me alone.

I did some retail therapy today. On giftcards. Nothing better than shopping when it's not costing you a dime. I haven't been shopping as much lately just b/c I need to do a better job at watching my expenses before they get out of control. I will cut down on some of my luxiuries. Just not today, or tomorrow. Or next week for that matter. Another thing that I got for free was a 42" flat screen that I have no idea what to do with b/c I already own 2 other ones. Albeit that this ones is bigger than my other 2, but... egh.... I am not that impressed anymore.

Not my kind of neighborhood.

So I have only been in my apartment since march and while I do love my apartment I know in my hearts of hearts this isn't the place for me.
I love the city I live in even though it is 20 miles from my office. This is where I grew up. Not this side of town but this city. Since I have lived here my bf has gotten his car broken into, the neighborhood bar has been crashed into and there was murder/suicide about 6 houses down this weekend. Did I mention 2 of the 3 things I mentioned happen within the last 5 days? The kicker is I don't live on the crappy side of town. I live 4 blocks from the beach and I pay ridiculous rent for one person with no roommates. Love the granite and the newness of the apartment but I need to move up to a condo.

Week 1+

So back at it again.... trying to drop some pounds. This time I have a little more help since I am not relying soley on my cooking abilities b/c either I would starve or I would go back to eating out. I have been without fast food for almost 2 weeks and have had the bf cooking dinners for me. Honestly, I do feel alot better than I have felt in a while. Since I have started I have lost 6.5 lbs. Which makes me a little excited. Can't wait to drop some more. :)

In other news... we moved offices this past week. Not a big move just from one floor to another. More annoying than anything else. Nice to have some new faces in the office. Everything seems a little more spaced so we dont have people working on top of each other anymore.

I have been shopping like crazy for no apparrent reason. Well except for jackets. The thing about living in Southern California no one ever thinks its cold around here. What most people dont understand that cold is relative. If it is 58 degrees in Southern California we are cold. If it is 58 degrees in Idaho its time to bust out the shorts and flip flops. Its like a meat locker in my office today.

Diifficult

So last night I did one of the most difficult things I have had to do in my life. It was something discussed, mulled over and even thought about not doing it at all. But I knew if I wanted to have good karma and not hate myself in later years I had to do it. Especially if I didn't want anyone else to have to experience the same. At the end I felt relieved and better on the inside for so many reasons and totally glad I went through with it. Thank you God.

Babies and things...

I love babies! No, not because I want to have one anytime soon but I came to the realization over the weekend that I have not been in the presence of one for a long time. I went to my parents house for a bbq and one of their friends had a squirming bundle of joy with them. Then I realized all of my friends kids are about 3-4 years olds. Still in the cute stage but they don't smell like babies or taste like chicken anymore.

Then I realized I will have a squishy bundle of joy here in November when my best friend is due. I am planning the baby shower along with another co-host. *smile* Overspoiled child here I come!

Friends in Low Places.

Lately I have been having some conflicting thoughts on those I call friends. For example there are those that we call friends who have ulterior motives. Even when they are the shoulder you cry on sometimes they are just waiting for you to drop your guard so they can take advantage of your vulnerability. Then there are the other friends who actually mean no harm but they are succubus' by nature. Maybe it's time I start letting them drop.

A Little Excitement

So the last couple of weeks and the next couple of weeks are going to be full of some fun times. I am getting in touch with my inner-white trash (I'm not even white!). Anyway, yesterday the girls and I made our confirmations for Rodeo weekend out in *yeee haaa!* Parker, AZ. It doesn't sound like the most glamourous thing ever but it sure is a hella lotta fun. Mix up a couple of girls, cowboys and drinks on the side of the river and you know its gonna be a good time.

*Cheers!*

Ketchup

I just love ketchup... but here is the catch-up:

1. Chances are you won't lose weight if you inhaled 3 burgers in a week.
2. When things are going really well it scares me.
3. I am coming to the realization that I used to be very ahead of the game but now I think my age is starting to catch up with my accomplishments and I wonder if I being a slacker.
4. I don't like everyone.
5. I don't think everyone likes me.
6. For the money I make I still have no idea where it goes. That is really bad. I could probably support a small Ethiopian family on my wasting on food.
7. I am already starting to dread the holidays. Not for any particular reason or person.... just I don't do well around the holidays.
8. So many gadgets, so little time.
9. I miss having a dog.
10. I think I am still missing.

Will post again soon.

I'm not sure where I am going with this post, but....

Lets see how much I can say without completely outing myself. My bf was out of town for the last 8 days and this was our first time apart. He stayed through our anniversary, you remember those honeymoon days when 3 months was a big deal? I knew I would miss him and I figured eventually he would miss me but seriously I didn't think it would be to the level it was. He is Mr. I-am-a-tough-man and not always great with showing emotion he broke within 2-3 days. I guess being apart does make the heart grow fonder. When we saw each other last night it was like he had been away for months not just 8 days. We stayed up till 3 in the morning talking.

The other thing I found out was that his whole family knows about me now. I knew he had told his Mom a few months back and I figured that was the extent of it. On top of that his mom heard him say that he loves me on one of our phone calls and she called him out on it. I don't know what I expected him to do... but he told his mom that he loves me and she responded back that she is happy for him. Maybe its just me with my anxiety but now I am worried that she is just calculating something in the back of her mind. I need to get over it. I think it's just because of all the other bad experiences I have had with parents I freak myself out. Maybe she is genuinely happy for us. I guess we will find out as time passes. We talked about forever. Forever is a possibility. Forever with him doesn't scare me. I say this now in month 3, lets see how I feel in month 6.

It's funny...

When you hear someone lying through their teeth. I wonder if they realize that they are lying or if they really believe their own BS. I know the real truth. I knew it was bad since day one. Waiting for this bomb to explode. Here before, here after. que sera sera.

I *~HEART~* Drew Carey!

Since I couldnt sleep last night I stayed up and watched Leno and Letterman last night and caught my favorite pudgy funnyman Drew Carey on Letterman. I remember when he had The Drew Carey Show and I thought it was hilarious. There has been big talk of who will be replacing Bob Barker on The Price is Right. Guess who is gonna be the new Golden boy of the show..... *drum roll*.... Drew Carey!

Now If I could get my legs to stop twitching....

Before I go into what my title post let me go back to my last entry.

Last week I had an extrememly long day that included my regular job, a 2 hour mentoring meeting and working my second job for an emergancy stop. So I didn't end up getting home till about 11'ish and the bf still wanted to come over. So I got in bed to watch some TV and ended up falling asleep. The next thing I know I feel a tap. Turns out that he had been banging on my door and ringing my doorbell throwing rocks at my window along with the neighbor and they were worried about me b/c its not like me not to answer my door... so they ended up breaking into my house.

I am not gonna go into the logistics of how all that went down but it doesn't make me feel all that safe anymore. Fortunely, I am not home by myself too often and when I told my mom what happen I tried to tell her as if it was a joke and she wasn't to happy about it either. So what do you? I have deadbolts and everything I can but still. Have to start thinking of new security measures.

As for the header.... I went on drinking binge on Saturday night in Newport and I am still paying for it today. This will detour me for... oh... a couple of weeks.

Does A Man Live Here?

If not, why is there ESPN HD on the TV? No. Because I am a good girlfriend.

So I am finally done with 90% of my shopping. I got 2 flat screen TV's, the new Macbook Pro 17" Hi Res, a Cannon 10MP camera, another Ipod (don't want the iphone, yet) and a partridge in a pear tree. The one thing that makes me a little paranoid is the fact that I don't have a dog or anything to gaurd my house so I went and got renters insurance today. It actually turned out relatively inexpensive and it gives me piece of mind if ever get robbed. Well as much of a piece of mind as you can get at that point. It also safegaurds against my cooking.

I still have a couple more things I want to buy for my house but for now I think I have the most major stuff I wanted. It's nice to have a feeling of accomplishment and something to show for it.

Another Crack?

Pownce....

http://mashable.com/2007/06/28/pownce-2/

I dunno about the rest of you but I am willing to give it a go b/c I wasn't that impressed by twitter.

Baby's coming home!

I've been in a really foul mood for the past couple of days. Anyone who knows me knows that I can't live without electronics. My phone died a couple of days ago and I was so upset. I know some people can live without one but if you don't even have a phone at your house you are screwed. So I had to borrow everyones phone for the last couple of days to check my voicemail and return my phone calls. I even drove down to my parents house to use their phone. Like a hobo.

Anyway, I just called the phone store and they got my phone delivered. Yay! Baby, momma's coming to get you!

Unfinished questions

picked up at caterwauling:

1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss was… a bit rushed. I wish we had a little more time to linger.
2. I am listening to… background jazz and me typing.
3. I talk… very fast.
4. I love… myself.
5. My best friends… are people I have known since I was a kid. We have seen each other grow and change into the fabulous people we are today.
6. My Car… gets me from point a to point b. It's nice but its not my "dream" car. I have more of a priority to buy a house than another new car.
7. My love life… for the time being is chugging along. At other times it's torn me down.
8. I hate it when people ask… too many responses. We will leave it at that.
9. I want to… be healthier.
10. Marriage is… something I will do once I meet the right person. I only want to do it once.
11. Somewhere, someone is thinking… I wonder whatever happen to that girl with the long hair?
12. I’m always… looking for the next shoe.
13. I have a secret crush on… someone that I know better than to have one on.
15. My cell phone… is broken. Waiting for my new one to be shipped. I feel so lost without hip to ear communication. Almost tempted to get the iPhone just b/c I am upgrading my computer as well. I just don't want to go to AT&T.
16. When I wake up in the morning… I wish I had a couple of more minutes in bed.
17. Before I go to bed I… I count my blessings, say a prayer.
18. Right now I am thinking about… how hard it is to pick out a flat screen. You would think it woul be fun getting a new electronic but its actually making my head hurt.
19. Babies are… planned for the future. After buying a house and getting married. Damn me for being tradtional!
20. I get on MySpace… to check my messages. I rarely ever comment.
21. Today I… am picking up my beach cruiser.
22. Tonight I will… have dinner made for me. :)
23. Tomorrow I will… get to ride my new bike and do a litle shopping.
24. I really want to… have it all. Why not?
25. Someone who will most likely repost this… nobody. Not too many people read my blog.

Hitting the big time....

I've been working like crazy for the past couple of weeks barely even noticing summer had begun. I had an epiphany since then and thought back to what I was doing a year ago and man have the times changed.

At the beginning of last summer I was under the impression I was going to lose my job. The over thinker/analyzer/minor OCD'er that I am, I started figuring out my next step career wise. It's funny I say career b/c this still being my early 20's I shouldn't be facing the fact that I may get rolled under a corporate lay off, but I digress. So considering the field I am in I went in to get further licensing. I could have gotten my licensing from some rink-a-dink school kind of like going to driving school with bad jokes, but I decided to go to an institution of higher learning. The hours were brutal 4 days a week, 4 hours a day for the whole summer. On top of my 40+ hour job and handling a household including a child (not mine). The only thing I remember was leaving the office to make it to class and seeing the beautiful 72 degree evenings go to waste. It made me so sad.

So this year considering my "career" is back on track and true I really should be back at the 4 year, I decided to take the summer off. I remember I hated everything last summer b/c I had no time for any fun. I will be back in school in the fall *kicking and screaming*, b/c I can't not finish. I am still working on my house; this is the fun month were I am pimping out my house with the flat screens, the new computer, a new camera and some wireless additions. I realized I have been busting my arse my whole adult life and I barely have any fun to show for it. It's time for me to get a life and have some fun and quit worrying/working so much. Not to say that I am about to drop everything I have going on right now an go follow a band or anything. But hell I need a vacation! Even if the vacation is from within.

So here is to me starting a vaction within my life instead of hoping to get out of my life and start a vacation then. *cheers!*

P.S.: I made Lemon Chicken and herb rice this week. Next week...meat sauce and pasta.

Watch out folks... hell may be freezing over!!!

So last night I got on some whim and offered to COOK DINNER. Not only did I offer, I ACTUALLY DID IT. I called my friend Andy to help me with ideas. Not b/c I can't cook (as I tell everyone I can't) just b/c I actually needed to cook something healthy. I ended up making Keilbasa (sp?) with veggies in a tomato jalapeno sauce. Oh and some whole wheat pasta. Made enough for dinner for 2 and 2 lunches for me.

Wanna hear the scary thing? I somewhat enjoyed it. My gf called me when I was cleaning up the kitchen and she asked me what I was doing and I told her "If I tell you, you won't believe me." She automatically said cooking. I dunno people... This is the beginning of something scary. Me enjoying cooking? The only thing it made me notice is that either my stupid ex took a lot of my cooking stuff or that its still in the garage waiting to be unpacked. Either way... I think if this keeps up I would upgrade to nicer stuff anyway. The nice stuff I had he treated like crap anyway. Like my new platinum rimmed dishes and heavy silver set are things I have acquired since the split and God forbid I would let him get his hands on it.

On the rest of the domestic front. I think my vacuum cleaner is cute and I bought this really cool frame that holds 30- 4"x6" pictures. I dunno if I should fill it with pictures I took for art purposes or if I should fill it with pictures of friends and family. What I may end up doing is buying a second frame (first one for my 2nd/room office, second for my dining or living room) and filling the first one with artistic black and whites and the one that everyone sees with pics of friends and family in color. Something like that.

Next stop... white sale!

Counting...

It's finally Friday :) I am just counting the hours till I get to go home and start my weekend.

Emotionally, I am a little more stabilized. Almost on an upswing really. Even with saying that I fear that I might screw myself. I still worry constantly accross the board. Really I have nothing to worry about that can't be taken care of quite easily. I have had a couple of revelations within the last couple of weeks that have put some issues to rest or have left me at peace.

Lets hope it stays this way.

Poor Muppets

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