5/4/08

My therapist isn't on vacation....

but I am totally feeling mental today. I see her tomorrow but I am deep into my emotions today. I don't know if its all the booze I've consumed for the last couple of days or if its the fact that Aunt FLO is due to visit, I am just not feeling right.

There's a lot of things that have been floating around lately that I haven't talked about. One of them being my mental health is running amok again and I don't want to deal with it. I take that back. I don't want to be medicated. I know that it would be the best thing for me and it would solve a lot of my other issues that I have going on, its still just scary you know?

I keep asking why can't we fast forward life for a couple of months to just to through the rough spots. I know why. Because thats how we miss the good that would have came with the rough and worse thats how you just fast forward to another rough patch - we can never tell what's really gonna happen.

One of the few things I have going for me is that at least I know I am loved.  I am grateful for that. 

4 comments:

Jess said...

I'm glad you're able to have some perspective about this stuff. And I hope you're able to work out whatever it is that's feeling off to you right now.

nicoleantoinette said...

I've been feeling like this a lot lately as well. It's so tough.

brookem said...

hi there, found you through miss nicole.

i too, wish we could just fastforward life through the crap spots. i guess it's those rough patches that make us really appreciate the good times.

hang in there.

magda said...

Feel better soon! While love may not be able to set everything straight again, it's something good to fall back on, I find. Keep on working through it; time will pass, faster than you think :)