Unfinished questions

picked up at caterwauling:

1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss was… a bit rushed. I wish we had a little more time to linger.
2. I am listening to… background jazz and me typing.
3. I talk… very fast.
4. I love… myself.
5. My best friends… are people I have known since I was a kid. We have seen each other grow and change into the fabulous people we are today.
6. My Car… gets me from point a to point b. It's nice but its not my "dream" car. I have more of a priority to buy a house than another new car.
7. My love life… for the time being is chugging along. At other times it's torn me down.
8. I hate it when people ask… too many responses. We will leave it at that.
9. I want to… be healthier.
10. Marriage is… something I will do once I meet the right person. I only want to do it once.
11. Somewhere, someone is thinking… I wonder whatever happen to that girl with the long hair?
12. I’m always… looking for the next shoe.
13. I have a secret crush on… someone that I know better than to have one on.
15. My cell phone… is broken. Waiting for my new one to be shipped. I feel so lost without hip to ear communication. Almost tempted to get the iPhone just b/c I am upgrading my computer as well. I just don't want to go to AT&T.
16. When I wake up in the morning… I wish I had a couple of more minutes in bed.
17. Before I go to bed I… I count my blessings, say a prayer.
18. Right now I am thinking about… how hard it is to pick out a flat screen. You would think it woul be fun getting a new electronic but its actually making my head hurt.
19. Babies are… planned for the future. After buying a house and getting married. Damn me for being tradtional!
20. I get on MySpace… to check my messages. I rarely ever comment.
21. Today I… am picking up my beach cruiser.
22. Tonight I will… have dinner made for me. :)
23. Tomorrow I will… get to ride my new bike and do a litle shopping.
24. I really want to… have it all. Why not?
25. Someone who will most likely repost this… nobody. Not too many people read my blog.

Hitting the big time....

I've been working like crazy for the past couple of weeks barely even noticing summer had begun. I had an epiphany since then and thought back to what I was doing a year ago and man have the times changed.

At the beginning of last summer I was under the impression I was going to lose my job. The over thinker/analyzer/minor OCD'er that I am, I started figuring out my next step career wise. It's funny I say career b/c this still being my early 20's I shouldn't be facing the fact that I may get rolled under a corporate lay off, but I digress. So considering the field I am in I went in to get further licensing. I could have gotten my licensing from some rink-a-dink school kind of like going to driving school with bad jokes, but I decided to go to an institution of higher learning. The hours were brutal 4 days a week, 4 hours a day for the whole summer. On top of my 40+ hour job and handling a household including a child (not mine). The only thing I remember was leaving the office to make it to class and seeing the beautiful 72 degree evenings go to waste. It made me so sad.

So this year considering my "career" is back on track and true I really should be back at the 4 year, I decided to take the summer off. I remember I hated everything last summer b/c I had no time for any fun. I will be back in school in the fall *kicking and screaming*, b/c I can't not finish. I am still working on my house; this is the fun month were I am pimping out my house with the flat screens, the new computer, a new camera and some wireless additions. I realized I have been busting my arse my whole adult life and I barely have any fun to show for it. It's time for me to get a life and have some fun and quit worrying/working so much. Not to say that I am about to drop everything I have going on right now an go follow a band or anything. But hell I need a vacation! Even if the vacation is from within.

So here is to me starting a vaction within my life instead of hoping to get out of my life and start a vacation then. *cheers!*

P.S.: I made Lemon Chicken and herb rice this week. Next week...meat sauce and pasta.

Watch out folks... hell may be freezing over!!!

So last night I got on some whim and offered to COOK DINNER. Not only did I offer, I ACTUALLY DID IT. I called my friend Andy to help me with ideas. Not b/c I can't cook (as I tell everyone I can't) just b/c I actually needed to cook something healthy. I ended up making Keilbasa (sp?) with veggies in a tomato jalapeno sauce. Oh and some whole wheat pasta. Made enough for dinner for 2 and 2 lunches for me.

Wanna hear the scary thing? I somewhat enjoyed it. My gf called me when I was cleaning up the kitchen and she asked me what I was doing and I told her "If I tell you, you won't believe me." She automatically said cooking. I dunno people... This is the beginning of something scary. Me enjoying cooking? The only thing it made me notice is that either my stupid ex took a lot of my cooking stuff or that its still in the garage waiting to be unpacked. Either way... I think if this keeps up I would upgrade to nicer stuff anyway. The nice stuff I had he treated like crap anyway. Like my new platinum rimmed dishes and heavy silver set are things I have acquired since the split and God forbid I would let him get his hands on it.

On the rest of the domestic front. I think my vacuum cleaner is cute and I bought this really cool frame that holds 30- 4"x6" pictures. I dunno if I should fill it with pictures I took for art purposes or if I should fill it with pictures of friends and family. What I may end up doing is buying a second frame (first one for my 2nd/room office, second for my dining or living room) and filling the first one with artistic black and whites and the one that everyone sees with pics of friends and family in color. Something like that.

Next stop... white sale!

Counting...

It's finally Friday :) I am just counting the hours till I get to go home and start my weekend.

Emotionally, I am a little more stabilized. Almost on an upswing really. Even with saying that I fear that I might screw myself. I still worry constantly accross the board. Really I have nothing to worry about that can't be taken care of quite easily. I have had a couple of revelations within the last couple of weeks that have put some issues to rest or have left me at peace.

Lets hope it stays this way.

Poor Muppets

'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Can't think....

I've been trying to come up with something interesting to say for a couple of days for anyone who follows this thing but this is just a few thoughts that have passed through my brain (that i didn't twitter)

1. Guys shouldn't have tramp stamps. Just not sexy.
2. Bras suck.
3. Going to a Dodgers vs. Angels game this weekend and I have fabulous seats.
4. My sibling is getting old... he is going to be 27 on Sunday. Yay him!
5. Work is slowing down... which is good for the summer.
6. The thought of going back to school in the fall = :(
7. I am a vodka girl for a reason... b/c piss water beer gives me a nasty headache.
8. Just b/c I am drunk doesn't make you that much cuter or me that much stupider that I would want to sleep with you.
9. Flatscreen TV here I come!
10. I am thinking of checking out the yoga studio right around the corner from my house. Get off my bum!

Things I've Been Meaning to Say

1. You know it's nto a good day when you are looking forward to it being over before it even starts.
2. Don't drink all of the booze you were supposed to have drank for the 3 day holiday weekend in one night.
3. Sometimes, it's not fame and fortune that will make you happy, a simple hug will warm you just the same.
4. It sucks when your brain and heart are fighting b/c there never seems to be a true winner just a big mess at the end.
5. At the end of the day no matter how much you worry it's not gonna fix itself unless you do something about it.
6. Just b/c other people are happy doesn't mean you have to hate them for it.

Can anyone tell it's just not a good day today?

Twitter....

So for anyone who wants to stalk me.... I got a twitter account... I am under starchase83.

Mentally I have been all over the place. Emotionally I have been pretty steady except for a couple of spikes. One overall good spike one kinda "(U@#)(U#%!" spike. I will get over it. It happens.

Life is good. I want to keep it that way.

Eh, can't stay away from this place...

Just a couple of things.....

living by the beach rocks.

you realize who your friends really are at those times of needs.

you know just b/c you should be into someone - doesn't necessarily mean you will be.

It's funny how much I am enjoying spending time at home by myself.

I actually had a good couple of posts in my head for the last week but this early in the morning I can't spew them out. Besides, I still have a job to do.


Final thought....

So this is what it feels like to be an adult. Happy Early birthday to me. Yay!

The Jig is up.....

I haven't decide for certain the fate of this blog... a lot of stuff in my life is wayyy different now and the people who have access to my life I don't think I want them having access to my blog now. So for now... I am discontinuing this blog. Blogging to me is like my hair color ... when I am starting a new phase in life I need a change (2nd one in). Eitherway, I had been thinking of doing a legitate fancy blog for a while... I have even some posts in my head already waiting. So farewell all... if you need to get a hold of me leave me a comment I will still be getting those.

The Saga Continues....

Since my last post I have been under the weather. I did end up going to San Francisco and it was fabulous! Well for the most part until the car broke down on our way back. I ended up flying back to Sacramento to pick up the car and drive back down.

Then this week... guess what? Pink eye. Again. I went to go see my doctor about it and he prescribed another round of antibiotics and some really nasty stuff for my eyes. He wants me to get my deviated septum fixed. I have had a lot of nose issues for the last couple of years but the thought of having my nose broken and reset does not sound like the best way to spend a week out of work. Nose job anyone?

Happy 100!

Just did a head cout and noticed that this will be my 100th post. Wow. Yay me :).

Anyway, I spent all day at home today. I am sick, again. I seem to fall into these warps where I cant get out of being sick. Sometimes I wonder if I have been running myself too hard but I really dont think so. I have the ongoing flu combined with pink eye. I remember as a child I used to get pink eye very frequently. Sometimes it was a good thing (to get out of PE class) sometimes it was a bad thing (had to miss field trips). It has actually been 2 years since I've had an outbreak... makes it sound like herpes doesn't?

I am afraid if it is going to affect my ability to travel to San Francisco this weekend.

Either my scale is broken....

Or I lost 10 lbs. I am not sure though. Lets hope for the latter; I havent been eating this rabbit/shark food for nothing.

The Man Spot

So, I started a new diet with the suport of my friend "Maria Torres" and have been working at finding new way to eat healthier while eating out. My new diet is the "Suzanne Somer's something something something". Anyway, its basically a lot of veggies and a good chunk of protien and basically no carbs. You know the saying, "You never know what you have until you don't have it anymore"? Man, I never thought of myself as a carb person, but I sure do miss them. I dont ever crave a piece of toast or a bowl of pasta, but a hamburger with no bun? Ludicrous!
Which moves me on to my next point.... I have been eating "no carb" burgers and the only place to get a decent one is from Carl's Jr. I had just gotten my car washed and I didnt want to get the line on my window so I walked in. OMG, the guy to girl ratio 25:1! I guess Carl's knew what they were doing when they put a tart like Paris Hilton to eat a burger and wash a car in their advertising! Now I know where all the boys hang out. ;)

Speaking of restaurants.... the bf and I came to a conclusion about one of our favorite restraunts, Spires. Its a booty call restaurant. Let me 'splain....It's the place where you go that is available when everything else is closed. This place is like Denny's if you got stuck in timewarp 30- 40 years ago. The people who work there are old enough to be my parents/grand parents. Everything/everyone is gloomy. They wear the same drab black & white uniforms. There are no pieces of "flair." Kind of like the sad drunks in Moe's Bar in the Simpsons. There are colorful characters from time to time. Like when the trannies have their monthly meetings there. I am not talking about the passable trannnies I am talking about the 5 0'clock shadow trannies. We went last night b/c it was the only place i could think of that was open late that I could get a new york steak and salad. As we were walking out we saw a handsome late 30 something guy walking in. Not only was he handsome, he was well dressed and was driving an expensive European car. Spires is no the kinda place you would see this guy at unless he was there for some other reason. Was he there to meet his secret lover? Was he there to meet with the trannies? Was he there to meet with one of the trannies that was his secret lover? Who knows.You only go in the darkness of the night, God forbid someone see you there in the day light. You don't invite your friends with you , you don't tell your family about it. You just go eat and leave. Don't ask any of your friends about it b/c they will either say they have never heard of the place.

Man, I didnt think I was that far and gone.

I didnt realize it had been this long since I had posted. Life around here has been crazy busy. I have been busting my ass at my new office. In a good way though. It's all one big giant learning experience. Along with my new office I took on a seperate project which I am pretty excited about. So now I am working weekends on top of my regular job but it's actually not that bad. I get to pad around in fluffy slippers on this second job. Also helps that I really like the person I am working for.

Artificial Intelligence

I should have attached a picture for this.... I have been dying my hair little by little for less than a year to make it blonde until yesterday. I had finally hit my blonde summit then guess what? Surprise, surprise.... I went back to black! Once you go black... eventually you do go back. It is kinda weird being back to my natural color, I will get used to it.

Next week should be fun... I have my final for my tax class.... It's my first time cooking thanksgiving dinner.... It's Aaron and my's 2 year anniversary (who wouldathunkit huh?) and the girl who I am replacing is leaving (me in the land mines). Oh joy.

No pressure:),

It's a good day today...

The house is controlled by the Democrats theoretically they will take over congress (with the help of the independants) and Bush will have no power! Woo hoo!


Even better than Politics...... K-Fed got his walking papers from Britney! She didnt even tell him, her people told his people on the Crackberry!


And on the personal front... work is great!

It's Funny...

How the things you would expect to know about those you are close with are the things you don't know. Yet people who are mere acquaintances will tell you more than you ever expected.

Life in the fast lane

Sorry to those who actually read my blog I've been gone for a while. Life has been turned upside down but in a good way. Work has been ruling my life for the past 3 years. As everyone is aware my compnay got bought out. It was either go down with the ship or climbing on with the new mothership. I decided to climb onto the mothership. It's been a rollercoaster for the last couple of weeks with interviewing and negotiating. Since I stayed on with the new company I didn't even get to give an official 2 week notice.

All in all its a good move for me. Sometimes I feel like I am joinin a cult. The even have their own "cuture." I liked working for a small company but I know in the long run in what I want to acheive career-wise this is better for me. I got a great position working with top people in this industry to theoretically train to be one one of them.

I've already met my new team. They remind me a lot of the office I started in when I started with the company. They are perky perfect people. With the perfect hair and make up and 300 jeans. The person I am taking over she said "We dress casual here!" that kind of attire is me on a good day of going out. I guess I have gotten really used to being super casual in jeans and t-shirts and sneakers. I feel very "Ugly Betty."

Wish me luck.... my first day is tomorrow.